mom

last night i cried
i cried like i cried a thousand times into your arms
and wiped my snot and dribble onto your shirt
cried like the world was ending
everything is coming down
and the only thing to do is cry
in your arms
with eyes squeezed shut
fists clenched
the sweet juice of pain running down my cheeks
unresolved mucus

last night i cried
and i wish i had been in your arms.

Humpback whales

his hand in my hand

Take Your Time

Sunday Afternoons

PBR and rainbow cupcakes

A Two Year Vacation

what i miss most about us
is watching antm
because this season is supposed to be really good
but when i watch i expect sex afterwards
such a let down.

i see who i used to be
someone beaten down
the shell of a snail shattered on the ground
there is a sort of pity felt inside
but i flick it away from my palm.

a sense of rebirth washes over me
when i walk down a street
or drive in my car
or look at some other guy
who may or may not be looking at me.

without you here
i am new
i am shiny
i am ripe with promise and ambition
and i step on those memories i had with you.

we do not know what we are
but we don't like it
so i'll go on and you'll move on
shuffling and scuffing the floors
until we clean up.

honey, oh honey,
i do still hold a love for you in my pocket of my 17-year-old jeans
but it'll stay there till i find some other use for it
like a hanky
or a safety pin.