Humpback whales

his hand in my hand

Take Your Time

Sunday Afternoons

PBR and rainbow cupcakes

A Two Year Vacation

what i miss most about us
is watching antm
because this season is supposed to be really good
but when i watch i expect sex afterwards
such a let down.

i see who i used to be
someone beaten down
the shell of a snail shattered on the ground
there is a sort of pity felt inside
but i flick it away from my palm.

a sense of rebirth washes over me
when i walk down a street
or drive in my car
or look at some other guy
who may or may not be looking at me.

without you here
i am new
i am shiny
i am ripe with promise and ambition
and i step on those memories i had with you.

we do not know what we are
but we don't like it
so i'll go on and you'll move on
shuffling and scuffing the floors
until we clean up.

honey, oh honey,
i do still hold a love for you in my pocket of my 17-year-old jeans
but it'll stay there till i find some other use for it
like a hanky
or a safety pin.

You weren't meant to read this. You were all meant to read this.

With the same surprised but trying attempt to be polite high pitched "Hey!"
She is not my age, We know nothing about that
Keep walking
on
Next clue to this mystery would be at the end of the corner
With an orange hand telling me what to do
Don't walk, it says.
Fuckit, I'm walking.

Keep walking
I try to remember things that I cannot remember
there are spots in my past that have been blotted out
with ink
into a blue-black abyss
which used to be full of light and dialogue and movement
I can remember a school field trip

You were there
chaperoning
so many kids
Ticks
We were worried about ticks.
Trails paved,
Wheelchair access.
Irises, I was the guardian
the specialist
the look-out
for Irises.

So little
yellow
mostly purple
the prettiest flower
on our hike
our tour
you were there
chaperoning.

Goddamned crosswalk
no one stops
almost get hit
no, wait. they stop
fuckyou, you better stop
punkass BMWs.
Purple, yellow

Some moss, a bridge
you were there
chaperoning.